somedays i am a penguin...

feb 7.2010
train talks and bull shit walks

metra needs to get its fucking act together. meth smoking on the train calling hte cops and 25 minute delays. oh and waiting for the train in the cold while people are in their car all damn warm watching me do my version of dancing. i look like a crazy and its okay cause its all about the dance and me anwyays.

feb ? 2010

i dont have a whole messy sotry to give any of you for this particular day and in fact i dont remember exactly waht day it was... i think it was the 12th or the 13th... all i know is that the following words were my thoughts.
let the earth breathe
stay on the beach, feel the sand and the sun take baths in the lone
i am okay with my world being shaken in the end i am all shattered and all stable
the emptiness is consuming and i am all too inviting
life is in constant motion and the world trembles i am so pleased to be sturdy
there is so much life i dont know about
i am so lost i am found
its okay to feel lost in life just means you are still looking for yourself and that is a beautiful life long journey
the names were there and then they wre gone and i still wrote on
i am my presence i can not give you anything more myself
i can feel my life getting ready to change... all the time
i can find the scary me within my mind and within the scary me i can find peace hope and tranquility
i kept slipping sliding stumbling and falling but i also kept taking that next step
i have what it takes to get back up
i know how it was suppost to look and how it was suppose to feel then i met you, you shook that up in a violent way. i love you. thank you and im okay.
my mind is both a beautiful and dangerous place living in constant cahso within my body and yet i can find a balance of sorts what i will call my inner harmony
everyday is a life celebration
how can nearly every exit really be an entrance and how can nrearly every entrance be an exit
each stip i take in the opposite direction makes it easier to no go back and continue walking away
i am complete all on my own you happen to be an amazing bonus in my life i am me +1 amazing you.

okay the next post will be up probably tomorrow... its too much for me to type right now... and i pull these straight out of my journal sumtimes...