good mourning

You stood next to me as tall as the Sears Tower
that
we never got into
much like the relationship
we never had

i've moved thru life
like that vacant
parking lot
we saw the city
& life
before we tumbeled
our own flesh and blood towers

i sang your name
in my native tongue
an act
ive not redone

i was mesmerized
mesmorizing
the laughter wrinkles
around your
sinking blue ocean eyes

you said
i couldnt love you
without knowing the little things
yet it was this little hting
that still wanted to love you

you broke a very important promise
& all i wanted to do was beat you
with my fist

i just wanted
you or i
not to exist

we were emotional
but far from endearing

his death was a hot knife searing
out end was nearing

you know not how many days felt like nights

every day since you left

ive continued to fight
hoping my mind wouldnt fly
back to the most pleasurable heart wrenching sight
the memory of that morning
that turned into
mourning.