one week back

i had forgotten how busy living back home could be. early morning running straight into late nights. never ending stampede of feet to rush to meet those whom im suppose to greet. living back home, using my agenda more to see you less. appreciating the quality of our time instead of taking for granted the quantity of it. growing in the right now to better the future.

so one week back home and im fully moved in all things unpacked. have a new job, and am on the schedule {after two days of training i was training the new guy}. back to being at sporting practices and tournaments for the siblings. also, gotten back into the swing of using my agenda multiple times a day to make sure i don't forget to stick to the plan. its busy around here, i forget sometimes to eat, in hopes of not missing a beat. im hoping it will only take one more week to break me into schedule. there are things i wanna do while im here and while i feel im off to a good start im sure i could do more to make it better.

my past weekend was a blast. i enjoyed NitGrit and Spankalicious taking over my sense of hearing, it was pleasant to say the least. my chicken nugget lunch and chocolate chip pancakes {BACON} breakfast were amazing meals. bbc life series is shot to perfection. and this bear is getting me thru the cold nights, he lets me cuddle him and it feels just right.

24 hours.

in the last 24 hours my life has been super busy... moved all my things. unpacked 75% of them. did tons of chores. painted the nails on many hands. played with the lil sis. went to an interview. got orientation for work tomorrow. life is picking up speed, and quick. i moved back home with the goal of getting my life together i just wasn't expecting it to all happen so fast. despite some odds, i'm happy. i have friends i look forward to seeing really soon, and other plans that are seeming to shine bright.

the work load wishes...

Finally able to blog some good news. My hunt for work has finally started to flower, and hopefully the fruit of my labor will soon blossom. I had an interview for a hostessing position this past Thursday. I can say I had a good time waiting for my interview to happen, made great conversation with a "single serving" friend. She was lovely, stylish, and a complete sweetheart. The interview itself wasn't anything like any other interview I have ever been on. I wasn't asked any questions about why I qualified for the position, instead the conversation we had was about my love of food and my family history with food. in the middle of the conversation we were interrupted, because of some ordeal with a wine order. During the time this took to be fixed I gathered that the man that was interviewing me wasn't just another worker, but instead the owner of 5 major city hot-spots for dining himself. He was a pretty chill guy, and referred me to three other places to apply to work at and said to use him as a recommendation. I take it I didn't get the job at his place, but he did say he highly recommends for me to attempt at the other places. So attempt, I will.

On another note, I have a meet up coming up sometime this week for a baby sitting gig that pays forty dollars for four hours. I will be baby sitting a two year old girl. I really hope I can get the job, cause it would be nice to be making some sort of income. Plus from the e-mails the mother and I have been sending each other this should work out wonderfully. *crosses fingers*

Along with all of the other work related news I have an interview on Tuesday at 7 p.m. for a part time cashiering position at the pasta bowl. I am hoping for the best with that interview. I haven't stopped looking for work yet, I have sent out my resume to about 20 other places this week. I know that with patience and persistence I will land a job.

thank you...

thank you to the people who continually tell me things i already know. i appreciate it, i really do, it adds to the fire that fuels me to keep pressing forth. I'd like to add not all the things you say out of spite do me harm in fact most of it can be seen in a different light and used as positive enforcement to help me do better. i will say i am very sad that you spend valuable precious moments of your time coming up with a way to hurt me and my emotions. it is a waste of your life to spend your time finding a way to send negative messages my way. would it not have been better to spend that minute or two reflecting on the positive aspects of your life and feel good about yourself that way? no, instead you took those two minutes {which over a life time will continue to add up} to send me negative vibes which I'm sure just put you in a worse mood than you were already in... to what make you feel like you are a better person than i am? wouldn't the bigger person just let it go, especially if it does not directly effect your life? i just hope that someday instead of putting others down and wasting your time putting more negative energy in the world, that you will all take those two minutes to reflect upon the things that bring you joy, make you happy, and that you do well. your rep what you sow, so sow positivity in your free time instead of coming up with new ways to rep hate.

19

i can feel the hot wet salty tears streaming and streaking down my face over the red heated blush of my cheeks, my eyes are now the fountain of every wish i made on a penny that never came true. you silent and concerned in the darkness of this night even without being able to see i could feel you looking me straight in the eyes. the hysteric mumbling of my insecurities as i prepare to take flight, are stilled you have me sit tight, take a deep breath, calm down realize come morning it will be alright. your words they play on repeat, a broken record but you don't own vinyl "19". my inner gemini fights between my logic and your insight i feel you hug me tight, the sound of my giggle is light like your pillows, we speak serious nonsense until you fall to sleep, as i watch the sun spread over the room like warm yellow paint over a canvas, a warm closed eyes smile covers my face finally i say "i'm 19 you're right".