those movie moments...

giddy and giggling along side my beautiful sam on a sunny summer day. we sat there she and i loving life on the red line cta to the china town stop. i laugh as she points out every seemingly cute girl that catches her eye. i love the little things she notices that make each person beautiful in their own way. our stop is up and we stand and my attention is caught i catch his eye on my way out the shutting doors, i can feel myself start to blush. i hurry out the train cart and steal one last glance at the guy with the dark hair and leather jacket and i do that double take i feel myself wonder who he is and smile at him... just as the doors shut im sure i caught him smile too. then he was gone. the train was gone and as i walk down the steps i talk with sam about how i felt like i knew him and that i should have at least said hello... it was a moment in time and space i felt like i had lost a perfection connection with a stranger... just like in most of my favorite girly romance movies...fast forward a few months... and he messages me reminds me of that day out with my friend and much to my surprise, i did know him and he knew me and he realized just like i did a little too late to say hello. his reaction much like mine was delayed and the doors shut on him before he could get off the train to say hello to me. it was a wonderfully lost and hopeful point in my life, im just glad someone shared it with me and that now we can both now look back and smile fully aware of who the other is.

time...

October came and went it flew by so quickly. It brings both a smile to face and tears to my eyes. I have so much to be grateful for when I look back upon my past month. Yet, I also have such a heavy heart when I look back... I, as well as many others lost an amazing friend, brother, son, and family member the last day of October. With a heavy heart I have to look forward to my future and know he will not be part of it. I hope where ever he is now that he is at peace. I hope he is enjoying the clouds even more than he did when he was here with us. I hope he is doing what he loves to do creating beautiful images the way none of us who knew him could. I hope he has a calm sweet dream rest until we can meet again. love sleepyhair sleepyhead.